Last night was horrible.
It didn't help that I was sick with a horrible cold, had a headache and couldn't even eat without feeling like I was going to vomit.
It also didn't help that Tom had to work so I had no help.
I could barely lift up Natalie during the day and had to change her diaper sitting down because I felt like I'd pass out if I stood up too much.
Natalie doesn't take long naps during the day, just cat naps really, but whenever she fell asleep I'd stretch out on the couch and try to get some sleep. It was difficult because Tommy kept asking for things.
"Mommy I'm hungry."
"Mommy I'm thirsty."
"Mommy can you play with me?"
I nearly burst into tears at one point because I was feeling so exhausted and all I wanted to do was sleep.
Then at night Natalie was actually sleeping well and I was about to drift off to sleep when Tommy woke up crying.
He wanted a tissue. He also has a cold so he was scared when he couldn't breathe.
So I brought that to him.
Then I was about to drift off again and Tommy cried some more.
This time he wanted water.
I was getting so frustrated.
I cried in the kitchen as I got Tommy's water and kept repeating, "I just need to sleep, just a little bit of sleep.."
Thankfully today I am feeling slightly better. I still have a bit of a headache and my nose is stuffed but I don't feel as weak as I did yesterday.
Tom works tonight and then he's off Monday and Tuesday so I'll at least have some help then.
I'm also slightly jealous because Natalie smiles all the time at Tom. Hello, I'm the one who changes the diapers and feeds her, where are my smiles??
In other news my photo program won't work because it's not compatable with Windows Vista.
*Hates Windows Vista*
It messed up the computer so Tom had to call Dell and they fixed it for us but said we had to remove that program.
So that's why there haven't been pictures. I may post some at some point but they'll probably be huge since I can't resize and everything.
*Curses Windows Vista some more*