Okay, so as soon as my son turned 18, I noticed changes.
First, I couldn't make doctor's appointments for him. If I tried, they'd be all, "Oh I see he's 18, I'll need to speak to the patient."
I was like:
I had been making appointments for him since I pushed him out of me! It felt like the rug was ripped out from under my feet.
Then I asked his college where to go to state that he had autism. I was replied with, "I'm sorry, I can only communicate with the student."
It happens so fast! One minute I was being asked ALL THE THINGS and the next it's all, "Sorry, nope, he might be living at home, and you might still be washing his underwear, but he's 18 and you're no longer relevant." Obviously they didn't say that, but it felt like it. You'd think this would gradually happen but no, once they turn 18, the parents aren't needed.
It felt like a kick to heart, honestly.
And it's not like I'm trying to baby him, but I mean, I'm used to asking all the questions. For standing up for him. It's hard to suddenly step back from that. I've been doing it for EIGHTEEN YEARS.
But I'm trying.
Since Tommy's college is remote for the fall, he had to do a bunch of things via zoom. It was so hard for me not to see if he needed help. I listened outside his door for a bit, I won't lie. Does that make me crazy? Maybe. But he's my boy.
He had to do his new student orientation online, plus register for his classes. That was tricky for him as well, but he figured it out. I know it's good for him to do things on his own, even if he is confused. (I could hear him say, "What do I click?" when he was registering for classes multiple times.) But I am proud of him, because he can meltdown when frustrated, but he held it together.
So I will step away. I know he's capable.
Even if it does sting a little.
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It must be hard to have an adult as a child, for sure!
ReplyDeleteThe first time that happened to me I was like, "Wait, what?" It's so hard when you've been doing all the things for them and suddenly, they're an adult.
ReplyDeleteI remember when my son turned 18 and it was like Mom, I can do this now. Very sad part of my life. But many years later, he still asks for advice. Hang in there mom. They always need us
ReplyDeleteWow 18! I have 13 years to go before I hit that milestone with my oldest, but I can imagine it's a whole mixed bag of emotions.
ReplyDeleteI can't relate to your feelings, but it must be difficult for parents to see their kids all grown up. It means that their childchood has already finished. :)
ReplyDeleteMy kids are still babies but I understand what you're saying, it is very difficult to let go, very difficult!!!
ReplyDeleteI'll be here soon enough. 3 more years. I am already preparing myself.
ReplyDeleteI'm not looking forward to my kids turning 18 at all. I can completely understand where you're coming from though. It's got to be really hard.
ReplyDeleteI keep counting down the years I still have left until my kids turn 18. I'm sure it's hard to let them go spread their wings.
ReplyDeleteI just looked at my son tonight as he was putting on his pajama shirt and he looked 18. Mind you he’s 6. I’m sad already, that he’ll be 18 soon. 12 years is too soon. Gahhh.
ReplyDeleteI think the age of majority should be 21. 18 is still kind of psuedo adulthood as there is still so many things they can't do.
ReplyDeleteI know how hard it is for both of you but I know Tommy can do it and I am pretty sure that you are still there for him when he needs help.
ReplyDeleteThat is life it's so hard seeing them in the time where they are in junior and now they are senior soon they will work. But you really see is their future a great tomorrow with all you love and care.
ReplyDeleteYep, I feel you. Take it one day at a time as a parent of a young teen.
ReplyDeletewow! Congratulations! It's a beautiful age and everything will be ok for you too!
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine the transition this has been for you but it looks like you are making the transition as best as possible. And can I say, the last photo did have me tear up a bit, very sweet.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure it must be so hard to let go.I know my parents struggled, but instead of being supportive and stepping back, the cranked up the heat instead. It drove me away. So even if it is hard, freedom is a must.
ReplyDeleteIt really is hard to let go and let them have their independence, and trust that they will know what to do! I can totally relate even though my kids are younger!
ReplyDeleteTime really does fly. I know I will be a mess when my kids turn 18.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing an amazing work no doubt🙂...this is very inspiring for every of reader..glad you shared this with us..Thanks indeed...
ReplyDeleteI'm not looking forward to the day when my baby becomes an adult.... I still have 10 more years but the time is flying I know it will be here in the blink of an eye. This was written so well and the photo of the toys with him walking away, so cute!
ReplyDeleteMy son is only 5, but I am not looking forward to him being 18 ��
ReplyDeleteNo you are not crazy. It shows the love you have for your kids.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter turned 17 in April, I'm looking forward to her making her own doctor appointments but I'll still be washing her knickers until the end of time! :D
ReplyDeleteThis feeling is saddening. At first, all they need is you and the next thing you know..they're an adult already!
ReplyDeleteMy daughter is just turning into a teen and I feel like she is growing up too fast! How much more when she turns 18!
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine how hard this is on a parent. Kids really grow up too fast right before your eyes. Trust that you have taught him well and that he will remember what you taught him.
ReplyDeleteYes I can imagine what is going through, kids grow up fast and we need change according to it, I am not ready it as my girl is only at 5th grade may I will be in your shoes in few years later.
ReplyDeleteMy son is only 4 and I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to him turning 18. lol It must have been hard but life happens! Sending you hugs!
ReplyDeleteThat brought tears to my eyes :( I have just one kiddo and I know it's going to be so rough when she turns 18. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteI don't have kids but this is such a neat post!!! thanks for sharing this.
ReplyDeleteI never even thought about those little things that you have to let go of as they get older. Sending lots of love!
ReplyDeleteLetting go is so hard. My son joined the army and has been stationed in Fort Sill, Oklahoma for about a year now. It's been extremely difficult, but we're doing it.
ReplyDeleteI bet! Mine are 7 months and almost 3. I can't imagine the day that they turn 18!
ReplyDeleteI have two children and my daughter just turned 20. It is a slippery slope because you are still the parent but they are nearly adults
ReplyDeleteI am kind of excited for my kids to turn 18. I have been preparing them their whole lives to live on their own.
ReplyDeleteIt's certainly different when your kiddo is 18. I think I will have a harder time letting go when my middle is 18 for whatever reasons. My firstborn turned 18 last year and while it is bittersweet, I have had an easy time stepping back into the parenting an adult role than I thought I would have.
ReplyDeleteI am a long way off from having an 18 year old, but I know when the time comes, I will not be ready! I remember when I turned 18 and felt so much like an adult, but I still had a lot to learn!
ReplyDeleteI get you, it's really takes time to move on from being needed to just watching him from afar.
ReplyDeleteGlad he's doing great.
Congratulations on your sons graduation his milestone is one of the best precious gift on your life as a parent " I'm not a parent yet! "
ReplyDeleteoh I hear you! It's so hard to let go. My baby is turning 21 next week
ReplyDeleteThey really do grow up in a blink of an eye! It is amazing how the time flies.
ReplyDeleteI still have a few years before this happens, but I know it will be here before I know it.
ReplyDeleteAwww parents really get attached with their kids and I don't see it as a bad thing. It only means that you care and love them so much!
ReplyDeleteParenting is rewarding but also have its sad moments, preparing for the empty nest is not easy for sure
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